this few days..i felt i could die..many things happen..everysingle thing happen really hurts..classmate getting crazy..from bad to worse..could not concerntrate in class no one to believe...no shoulder to cry on..i just wish a true friend woud appear in my life..the one who make me happy, a shoulder to cry on..why is it hard for me to face a journey like this.i use to be strong..but something just change me.but who and why?.. dear god.do help me and give me strength to live.where is my true friend.. tomorrow i'll be having ndp parrade. having no beret. i truly dead. OMG i'm drowning in the darkness where am i ?...

something happen that i dont have any mood to do anything..just wanna get my tears drop..but i dont want to..i just dont noe wat to say... meet u guys went i'm find...hmmm..maybe quite long coz exams coming...few more weeks..hope i could push this problem aside and study see ya readers..bye for now....

hahaha ..today np is so damn fun..having rabani there with me joking around the atmosphere become better much more better more fun! having fateen's beret not kindda not my size difficult!belt?hahah run, walk , march hahah the belt will move up and up and up again plus having my my skirt big and slobby not iron..crazy..well seriously waste for the cadets didnt go..(haha no offence ho..) man just wanna have more fun ..we when to learners blok as it was rain ny cold..so great!..muahahhaha..well hope npcc go better and more np spirit..muahahha.. ..just want to smile.. ..hide the pain....

Today school kindda sucks.yelling in school early in the morning.everyone just look and walk away so nothing really happen such as a fight.. In Class.. well no way i could concentrate.Damn it! my mind keep thinking of something else such as classmate,friends,my people ,my human beings and mostly..NPCC. Just hate it so damn much.why is this happening?well actually the most absolutely irritating thing running through my head is my past! my past is haunting me back.. Having my new chapter of life start perfectly but stuck by my damn past..this is so damn irritating.i need a new chapter which will always be perfedtly fine..not horrible irritating sucking life.... where is my paradise hidden? ...wondering... ........why.......

my weekend isn't that fun...sometimes it good...well not feeling well this few days...headache,damn it. tomorrow i'm having npcc, got my uniform ready but not a full set u see...NO bERET!heard that i had NO BERET! man just hating it..not good..i'm dead.well knowing that for ndp eve trainning and not all of them going..wah more headache.sian ehk..die sia tomorrow..nevermind lah everything goes with sacrifices...hate to be an IC for sec 2..where is the np spirit i know they have last time..where can i get it back..where are all my big spirit cadets..hmm.. ai yoh cannot tahan already sia...can die oi.. hhmmm....having problems with my classmate.my peoples and most my human beings.. having my old life my old chapter..the ones i could not share coming back where can i find my new life chapter.. wishing my new leaf of journey go well... see u in my mysterious journey..byebye.



damn it! what the hell! so many things happen between the days that i had no time to updated my blog..but today i had stuff in the computer lab...so, my days going bad to worse..theres so many things running in my head. even got sick of depression..even Sir ee knows about it..he realy cares about me... i love to have all my teachers being like that. i just dont understand why i keep on having a feeling that i've been hurt my beloved human being..my people ,she relly changes alot after got back wif shafiqah sume...theres so many things hidden behind my smiles.... wondering who knows everything behind my smiles...hope my human being n people knows...

boring!! i'm so BORED!! dh tak org...my beloved people kind of not herself but doing prefect patrol tu best sekali! mauhaaha hmm..today i couldn't meet my beloved human beings..not good ..not good..hahahha but i did accidently meet dorang kat nanyang CC.......hmmm.. hai my couzin pon leh sakit...kesian........ during mother tounge jek best..but dont forget PE siok ...taking care of the Jyian runners for retest muahah padan muka....some of them even could cheat! eee geramnye!!!.... hmmm anything..damn just missing my beloved people n most human beings! muaahahahah..klah ..nothing esle to say see u in the next chapter... BYEBYE+++ ouh yah not forgeting NPCC!! muahahha..i'm chosen for the shooting! best nye!!....on wednesday i will go for the dry shoot cant wait!...hurhur...klah....muahahaha

hhmmm today it great just during end of school...but the worse thing is!....we have to do the damn punishment but this is worse...it took 30 minit..i repeat ehk,30 minits!..urghh thats so SCUKING!...well but atleast i could meet my beloved human beings! muahahah really had fun... during school(MORNING) hmm just came to school then heard my beloved people having promblem..i reach infornt her class room then she hug me suddenly with a sad sad face,i repeat ehk,sad sad face..then she told me her probs..kesian die..i really care about her coz i love her,i repeat ehk,i love her..but i also love my human being too of coz..then went in class...a few minits back from restroom..knowing that my class mate..chong yong n firzad(T.I)...fighting in class, firstly i thought they were just playing around..after a few seconds...i found out there were no joke..its for real,irepeat ehk,its for REAL!...gile kan...hmmm what ever lah...but when chong yong when and hit soe i was so damn angry but i can do anything coz i dont want to hear rumors from that DAMN B*ITCH! she scuks..!! After school... well that during morning time but after skool ..well done even ask....i'm so mad of this two girl who i've been waiting for them in school tak tau.. dorang dh beli makan sendiri kat luar! aahhh!! damn i'm so damn mad!!nasib baik my beloved human beinsg was there....nasib baik ah....well guess till here my unexpexting readers..hahaha..thanks u for listening..muahahha ++see u at the next chapter! byebye!++++

hmmmm today the dinning table was only me and my mum having dinner together...none of my other family member was there as they were not at home..my sis when to work the other one when to granny house..my daddy,my mum got the food ready for him but in the end he didnt turn up..well few minits ago he when out already..hmm Takraw3! tak habis2.. Damn it! Tomorow is still schooling day..having problem with my class mate...damn most that gurl that DAMN B*TCH! she SCUKS! hate to say her name.. but seriously speaking she so damn irritating i repeat ehk,DAMN IRRITATING!.urgh just cant stand her any more.. MOTHER TOUNGE SUBJECT! oh my god! damn tomorrow i'm having MT n my malay classmate got this damn bullshit punishment! after school must stay back outside general office samo! i repeat ehk,OUTSIDE GENERAL OFFICE! damn bull shit! just hate it..i hate it as if i dont wanna go to school if there MT... well the onli thing i want to do when i reach school till school ends is to meet my love ones!..missing them like hell man! school kinda SCUKS! miss my beloved human beings! hope to morrow will be great! muahahhahah.... see u readers in the next chapter!<3>

Today school is so perfect for me! everything comes with a smile in my face... thank goodness my day become better..love from people that i love the most plus my deari sister ... WANTS MORE i just want more..i want more fun and mostly love!man i really-really happy today just dont know why its just so perfect!i love the day that i spend my happiness which is today..i just wish it could just be like this all the way i so loving it, haha man readers got to go .meet u guys at the next chapter... +++byeBye! lovely dae

0h hell yeah! at last! a blog! best nye..now i have a space to share my story...0h yeah! thank you! my dearest sister. thanks for this.i love it.n i love u! LUVU! hehehe..macam LEMbu muahahhaha... my deary self! well, my attitude will change,change,change and change..so swingiii! so,well i'm in love! hurhur.... so.....everything about me is strange..just like a stranger!... But the onli thing i dying to have is... love!!! hahaha...waiting for this for so long.. now i had the love from my third sis, but the second sis?... i dont noe wats wrong with her..she change alots....well share with u all readers next chapter of my journey.. +++freako signing out+++

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